I hate SAD.

Sunday, I couldn't stay awake. As in, literally. You know that groggy feeling you get when you're really _really_ tired and literally can't keep your eyes open? Yeah, that. Thing is though, I'd had a night's sleep. I'd had 15 _hours_ sleep. I couldn't stay awake through our gaming session and kept dipping in and out as energy came and went. I then went home and, you guessed it, slept.

Yesderday was slightly better, I could at least stay awake, and made it to the interactive where I had some fun playing a crazy mage. During the day I made some headway on costume, but again the exhaustion is just below the surface. My back aches, my muscles are all chainmail-sore (you know, sore like you've been in chain for three days) and my hands are weak, numb and shaky.

Then, last night, I suddenly went ice cold. As in, shivering and teeth chattering while indoors. I wrapped a blanket around myself but it didn't help. It was like my body literally had no reserves of heat to warm me up. Luckily, being at number 10, Wol was on hand to provide tea, and Robbie was on hand to say silly things and make me laugh. I just laughed too much... and kept on laughing until I was insensible and my eyes were streaming with tears. I have no idea. I eventually calmed down.

Today I've had a full night (and half the days) sleep, but I am still knackered. Sore, achey, numb and shaky. Could happily sleep till May. Won't though, as I have costume to make, a dress to alter and an adventure to write for Saturday.

Here's hoping I can STAY AWAKE and not fuck up and run off in a fit of depression.

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